The shaking of the boat makes it almost impossible to write this down, but I have to. Writing must clear my head. I will survive! No matter what it takes, no matter the cost. My hand is shaking even more than Gerbreyta. Caused by adrenaline or by fear? Sick, I feel very sick. Should I vomit, would that make me feel better? Ill try to delay that as long as possible. I must hold on. Stay strong. This pitoraq wont continue forever. It can lay down every minute now. They will rescue me as soon as possible. They cant risk their own life to save mine. Why not? Why should they? Perhaps they dont know yet, but Im worth to take a risk for!