So I guess Im not in love after all... I probably wanted to be in love, just to experience those overwhelming feelings. If there is somebody I still love, its Jóannis. Even if I dont want to, he possesses my life more then enough. If theres one feeling you cant coordinate, it is love. My attraction to Stig wasnt for nothing. It helped me to get over Jóannis. Because of Stig, Im not in love with Jóannis anymore. I do love him, but in a different way. Jóannis is still very important for me, like a brother would be. And I guess Stig is a bit like a brother as well. The good thing about Stig is that I can communicate with him. Actually, its much more comfortable to be around people alive. No reason to spend time with the dead anymore.